Wow. So this has been the first time that I have logged on to Deviant Art in a looong time. I was 14 when I made my account and now I'm 17. Many things have DEFINETLY changed. In my journals I was so in-love with something that could never be, and Iam SOOOO glad that I finally got out of that relationship but remember, I was 14 then. I deleted all of my journal entries because they were a thing in the past, and i found something new. I met a girl named Ashley at a friends graduation party 6 months ago. I thought she was weird, and I really didnt want to get to no her. She asked me to add her to myspace first thing when I got home from the party, and thats what I did. A week later, she added me back and invited me to go bowling with her that following Friday. I didnt no what to say. I was scared to get to no her because I guess you could say that "she wasnt my type." But I gave it a shot. That wednesay before we went bowling, Becky 'the chick who through the graduation party' called and asked if she could come over. I was bored out of my mind, i told her yes. But I didnt no that she was bringing Ashley with her. That was so weird being with a girl, knowing that she liked me, I didnt no how to act. But that night everything went alright, and I was more hyped up to go bowling with her after getting to no her. When Friday rolled around, I was so nervous. So I smoked a lot of weed to get over the nervousness and then she picked me up, around 9 at night. The ride there was ok because I was still buzzing and talking my head off. Mostly talking of nonsense. But when we got to the bowling ally, thats when the real fun started. I couldnt even bowl infront of her because I didnt want to make an ass out of myself because I have never bowled in my life. But some of my friends showed up and it broke the tension a little bit. On the way home, (around 11 - 12 at night) my buzz was long gone and i was a nervous wreck. but i wanted to get to no her. It was almost silent on the way back to my house. My mom had to leave about 5 mins after i showed up and i told ashley to come back afterwards. So she did. We layed in my bed for about an hour just talking and laughing and then i walked her out to her truck. I knew she liked me so I went in for a kiss. And thats how it happened. here Iam 6 months later in-love with someone i was so scared to get to no. I dont regret a thing.